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1.
julia in the garden passing by the window, i'm washing as the light goes down watch the water swirl the drain tax returns and bad days 'round the world or half way when it's like a strangers bed try to fold the fitted sheet cut forget me nots a handful at a time take a picture and remind me to remind you i will love you julia sometime on a tuesday thinking of you always walking down the aisle alone pour the soap in the machine mop the floor rinse repeat wipe the kitchen counter down clean the fridge drawers out dry the laundry on the line this receipt's it yours or mine
2.
04:26
tell me i'm pretty ugly as a joke ask me a question while hanging up the phone if i stop for a second i'll fall apart inside a private hell maybe you'd love me to fix it by myself la la la la la nothing's the matter how'd your day go? speak to my counsellor while staring at the wall if i go for a jog now i'll put it off for another time driving our car down picking out something nice nothing calms that nagging voice by filling up the void
3.
wearing a hole through my pocket sun in my eyes laying me flat spinning a wheel in slow motion asleep at the gate in the back sixteen sixteen stares float the deck in a teenage daydream scrape my palm again and again i never learn when i walk away easy they never tell just how far it bends come up to hollywood and selma come up to 15th n JFK all your friends are waiting there for ya none of this lasts as we fade away sixteen sixteen stares
4.
don't tell me it's a passing thing you loved me but now something's changed i'm different and you stayed the same so here it goes in life i've found it's never healthy to be something you're not having a crisis in three parts just one of the guys too sure of it all under the knife in montreal veni vidi please tell me it'll be alright i've left him in the meantime stonewalling all my questions like am i free to go new naming on the doctors door drivers license i've been waiting for will you love me in my final form she's ready for you now
5.
mary turns the pillow round the cold side of the bed shuts her eyes and drifts away into a dream again that she'll come back her coffee cup wilts in the heat the traffic crawls outside she puts the truck in park as the tears start to well in her eyes says pull yourself together mar' as she pops it into drive and goes to work who's here for her to love? what's this heart breaking up? questions and answers for no one at all mary tries to turn back the clock at the desk a photo frame her birthday last september that old rhyme 30 days april june and november memory has a funny way of knocking out your stomach she lays the picture down and heads out on her lunch break never coming back who's here for her to love? what's this heart breaking up? questions and answers for no one at all mary waits to run down the clock hangs her jacket on the chair the pile of unread letters scattered on the table there where she used to eat breakfast now it's microwavable if nothing so substantial mary numb and honestly never known as fragile burns the pile of consolations lets the cat out for the evening pours a beer into a clean mug and switches off the tv i always see you in my nightmares if i could switch you know i'd do it i miss you on your birthday i miss you every single day i miss you and i hate myself for living without you i hate myself for so many things and it tires me out but i love you and i hope you knew that and she goes to bed
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03:37
call me slacker when you wake up in the morning what comes after the yawning glowing screen the open window streaming light into a corner gaussian memory and life is serene darkened eyeline rolling right over the soft wave the flat sheet hanging off the bedding turned around a sound of the dryer humming somewhere in the background i'm kneeling with you with the dogs outside the door call me fascist when i'm hunched over the table reading atwood as the kettle starts to howl perfect in no way it's a good day for this rainfall we kiss like strangers in the here and the now oh my god
7.
03:04
it is not so bad to be thought of as a tyrant none so sad as a lover in the spring though the writer in you keeps a recent journal you say nothing to me tell it in a wash of pink noise in small room turn the other cheek when lying on the lawn sweetness fading into nothing after nothing i went running in the fog became so small now in a cold sea treading water when the head dips low unfocussed underneath though the writing always keeps my mind from closing ready for this new release as he walks alone southward down St Kieran's opening the locks and turning on the lights sweetness fading into mourning after evening Willie's gone but here with us all tonight
8.
05:17
make me feel alright again young man take a look at my life and make the same mistake i saw what the other is like and dream of something changing his holiness the evangelist closing up the gates no room in the summits womb for the exodus this late cain or abel at the crux rising water swallows us money changers the tables gonna bust sooner or later joel steps out a chevrolet and parts his narrow hair the early start of a hurricane when it crosses over laird greater heights and the astros (just) might win it in the fall but for now we're gonna somehow make it through this all eve or esther at the crux rising water swallows us money changers the tables gonna bust sooner or later if you slide your folded cheque inside the brassy alms dish would you know your right from left blind below the surface who will care for the sick and the poor and save the corporation tax the rich be done with it and heal all our relations oil and water never mix silky speaker the evangelist market crashes the chapels caving in sooner or later
9.
04:44
the part of this comes quick and painless leaving it up tossing a die picking a stone to hold on to what i could change? what i became would it have made you want to try to stay together for the kids it's easier to forget about yourself and what's good about you it's cool and sunny outside so why the fuck am i near asleep again this afternoon best plans laid out rough sketch no painting adrift apart bereft it's telling daughter or son flat or a house credit or debt we'll make it what could we change? what all becomes would this have made a difference try to stay together for the kids remember what i loved about you when we met before the mortgage piano lessons marriage counsellors in our separate beds until i leave and take the boys to school sitting with the engine running you'll never find another half to make you whole am i terrified of being alone? did you ever love me? will you ever forgive me?
10.
02:44
baby am i bored or am i lonely will i feel forever scrolling like the dog outside the banquet what's going on inside there i never took a single photo ripping out the kitchen half wall ate my dinner on top a tote bin as the dusk and dust mix in the flicker of a work light as if nothing was ever broken one proof i take myself too serious the audience won't laugh after each period the weightlessness of the punchline coming down on the wrong jaw swallowed in the last breath as i hollow out the last call jesus fucking christ the world spins across a different axis babies held in open cages a modern sort of sadness bit by bit pulling off the veil watch it slip hitting in a nail privilege our house is nearly full break the wall and seal back up the hole
11.
03:18
came to california with a letter in my hand here to land the big one just you wait it's all gonna work out one of these days night shifts at the rite aid late to pay the bill a pill to calm this invisible dread i feel it's all gonna work out one of these days all the lonely people coming down the canyon hills waiting in the next room i know i never will settle down my handshake before i walk on in it's all gonna work out one of these days waiting for the callback a sign from him upstairs is it in his plan to save us all from this deep despair it's all gonna work out one of these days if my lord won't take me for a feature role maybe he'll see fit to make me whole my god it'll work out one of these days mama don't you miss me on the tv screen talking in the background of this scene it's all gonna work out one of these days

about

RELEASE DATE: AUGUST 28, 2020


(An introduction to Aidan Knight: As a songwriter, performer and producer based on Vancouver Island, Aidan has released 3 critically acclaimed albums (Versicolour, Small Reveal, and Each Other), toured with artists like Half Moon Run, Andy Shauf, James Vincent McMorrow, Villagers, Dan Mangan and more. Since the release of his 3rd LP (Each Other) he’s moved to Berlin and back, begun a home base studio for his production work, and celebrated the birth of his son with Julia, his wife and longtime creative partner)

Here are his own words on the new recording, produced and recorded by Aidan:

Gotta say that I thought 2020 would be a much different world to release a new record into. Not like this, but it's been 4 years since Each Other - Streaming continues to grow in influence, bands are being asked not to simply write and perform but to curate playlists, merchandise, and do their own accounting. Dystopian fiction is selling. And yet, many things haven't dramatically changed - the climate crisis continues to elude politicians, songwriters and performers who labour to create all music still haven’t seized the means of production, and I still enjoy a bowl of cereal now and then.

I remember waking up in a tent after playing Glastonbury when Brexit happened in 2016. Loading-in at First Avenue in Minneapolis the night Prince died. Rescuing a hedgehog in Rotterdam after having a panic attack on stage. So many memories filed away at the time. I stopped drinking in 2017, stopped self-sabotaging and started recording new music in our 2 bedroom apartment. We moved in July of 2018 after 9 years there. Predictably, I panicked and thought about scrapping the entire record because I was extremely sad and couldn't tell anyone. Self improvement isn't always linear I suppose. You can falter and yet all's not lost.

I'm sure I won't be the last singer-songwriter to mine the depths of their ennui, depression and suffering for lyrics but these 12 songs are also some of the clearest and most shameful memories I have. When you feel horribly exposed but calm singing a line for the first time, you know it's right. Domestic bliss, unrelenting loneliness, death, love, taxing the rich, new life, the splendour of nature, renovating the basement, misunderstanding your parents, gender, body negativity – Y’know, stuff that sells.

In short, this is a modern record that borrows from a long history of techniques and songwriters that have inspired me. Every writer loves their newest thing, so it's redundant to say that I'm proud of these songs and think they are my best work yet. So, without further ado, I hope this music finds you healthy and ready to create a better world than it is right now.

AK
April 20 2020

credits

released August 28, 2020

Aidan Knight • Piano, Guitar, Bass, Drums, Voice, Roland Synthesizer, Lap Steel, Suzuki Omnichord, Fender Rhodes, Etc
Graham Jones • Drums, Percussion
Ryan Steele • Bass
Anna Horvath • Voice
Quatuor esca • Strings
Edith Fitzgerald • Violin
Sarah Martineau • Viola
Camille Paquette-Roy • Cello
Amélie Lamontagne • Violin
Colin Nealis • String Arrangement
Jonathan Anderson • Piano

Produced by Aidan Knight
Engineered by Aidan Knight (Living End), Jonathan Anderson (Protection Island), Colin Stewart (The Hive), & Louis-Jean Cormier (Studio Dandurand)
Mixed by Mathieu Parisien
Mastered by Richard Addison (Trillium Sound Mastering)
Made in Berlin (July 2016), Victoria (October 2017), Montreal (March 2018), & Saanich (January 2020)
Art & Photos by OPD Brooks
Management by Evan Newman

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